Estella: Chapters 10-19; Chance Calderhead

Estella

Chapters 10 - 19

Dear Diary,

This week Pip was called over to Satis House again. First he came over and I knew Ms. Havisham would want me to play cards or some silly game with him again in her attempt to get the poor boy to fall in love with me. Weirdly, she just had him stand by a window and listen to the conversations between Ms. Havisham's company and I. Sometimes, I feel sorry for the little boy but he is just a street rat to all of us. I asked Ms. Havisham why we put on this charade, what purpose she has in building this boys hopes dreams and feelings up just to crush them. I think I understand it but i'm not sure if its a good thing to do. However, I'm not one to argue after all the women adopted me and made me as rich as she'll ever be, that boy has earned nothing. After Ms. Havisham was done parading Pip around the house and her wedding cake table (which I find very creepy) I found him in the garden as he was leaving and figured he deserved to kiss me on the cheek for behaving.

Pip continues to come over on a regular bases for the next months. We would go through the routine things and Ms. Havisham would remind me of the main plan everytime. The more i got to know Pip the more I secretly disgusted toying with him in such a manner, but I kept character and the poor boy fell into all the traps. Once Pip got his apprenticeship at the forge I didn't see him for a long time. Then Ms. Havisham said i was going away for a long time. I think I might miss him and his impoverished ways.